A heart of stone. Seems tough. Seems strong. Seems indifferent. But never unbreakable. Because stones can be shattered. Shattered and broken into pieces. Into pieces that will just make you return to the original Maker, and plead that He’ll make it whole again. And He will. He definitely will. Just come back.
Sometimes I have random flashbacks of the scenes from the hospital. Especially when I’m studying. (And well, I’m studying all the time. So yeah.) And it’s paralyzing. I always get caught off guard. I look forward to the day that I could remember them without the sting. I still couldn’t see why, and maybe I never would from this side of life.
"I am feeble and utterly crushed;
I groan in anguish of heart.
All my longings lie open before You, Lord;
my sighing is not hidden from You.
My heart pounds, my strength fails me;
even the light has gone from my eyes.”
Books as gifts would always make me happy! Thank you! :)
Good morning!! @candicesy
Callouses are part of the body’s protective mechanism. It protects the skin or the area that gets all the pressure. If you try to remove it by cutting it out, you might cut too deeply and get wounded. The best way to remove it is to be patient with it, putting emollients until it softens.
A calloused heart protects the sin it harbors. If you aggressively try to remove it, you’ll bleed. Only God can soften it and change it back into a heart of flesh. So be patient with people with calloused hearts. Soak them in prayers. And in God’s time, their hearts will soften and they will see the callous for what it really is, an ugly covering for a heart that is made for so much more.
Taken from my journal last December 14, 2013, just a day after my mom’s death:
"You know how a roller coaster works? There are ups, downs, and upside downs that turn your world over. And it doesn’t end there, because you still feel dizzy and imbalanced after getting off the ride. That is exactly what happened these past few days. We had ups where we thought it’s gonna be alright, there were downs where a series of bad news were dropped upon us, and there were upside downs where we just lost control of the situation. It all happened so fast, like everything’s a blur, and it was over soon, and there are still aftershocks. And I’m sure it will take awhile."
Until now, I still feel the repercussions. But it’s okay, because just like any other ride, I know that an Operator is in charge. And He was in charge all throughout that ride, and that’s all I need to know.
You needed that. You needed the truth to cut through your heart just to know if you still feel anything. Ezekiel said there’s such a thing as a heart of stone. Well, who said stones can’t be shattered and broken into pieces?
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies.
(1 Corinthians 13:4-8, The Message)
I randomly read a post from a friend saying, “I will never give up on God.” It made me think how humans think that it’s always about them. Notice the “I”? More Christians should understand the meaning of grace. It’s not working for something to get the approval of God, or to get to God. He did all the work and gave it to us freely. We just have to accept, believe, and remain in Him. I pray that more eyes would be opened to the wonder of God’s grace and that they would start returning the credit to Him. It’s not about us. It has always been about Him.
I am very disappointed with “Christians” who live as Christians only in front of their Christian friends. Living a Godly life is not negotiable nor circumstance-based. Oh how I abhor hypocrisy.
"Don’t let your public and social media faith, be bigger than your relationship and intimacy with God."
"God is not human, that He should lie, not a human being, that He should change His mind. Does He speak and then not act? Does He promise and not fulfill?" (Numbers 23:19)
I almost jumped (Oh wait, I think I really did) with joy when I found The Screwtape Letters heeee :)